Happy New Year!! Happy New Year!!

Finally... today is the last day of the year 2008... so many thing happened.. so many things i did.. so many mistake i made.. so many sin i committed.. so many thing i ate.. so many heart i hurt.. so many things i learns(and will keep on learning InsyaAllah).. so many people i see and know..
year 2008 really is a great year of my life but still.. like i always.. there is up and down in life.. so do mine... there a few sad memories that happen in this year.. but i dun really wanna take it as i just want to look ahead and make the past as the lesson and useful experience for tomorrow..

im not believe in wat so called new year resolution as for me everyday in our life.. as we wake up.. we should have a resolution for the day.. but when people ask me what is my resolution this year.. i will simply say that i want to be a better person compare to the previous-previous year.. i dunno whether in the year 2008 i be a better person compare what i am in the year 2007..hurm.. maybe certain part but maybe i fail in certain part of it..

so.. just wanna take this oppurtunity to wish all my family and friends Happy New Year 2009 and may this new year will bring more joy.. more happiness.. more cheer.. more money.. more knowledge.. more peace to the world and our country.. or in summary.. hope everything will be great next year.. hehe.. so.. HAPPY NEW YEAR and Happy Holiday! (but i think i will spend my holiday, doing my case write up.. such a boring holiday.. anyway.. need to study if not doing it pun. exam is next week..)

hati berkata.. tangan menaip..kalau sudi bacala..

apa yang kita cari dalam hidup ini?
kadang-kadang kita dah dapat semua benda dalam hidup.. tapi sebagai manusia.. kita memang sentiasa tak merasai atau memahami erti cukup..... kita cenderung untuk melihat kejayaan orang lain dan kebahagiaan orang lain sambil membanding bezakan hidup kita dengan orang lain.. cemberu menguasai diri.. dengki.. kalau kita tak mampu capai apa yang dicapai orang lain.. buatlah orang lain tak dapat apa yang kita tak dapat.. akhirnya? puas? gembira? apa yang kita dapat? satu perasaan yang hanya kita sendiri dapat nikmati.. akhir hilang ditelan waktu? gembira di atas kesedihan orang lain? selama mana gembira itu? esok lusa tak tentu ada lagi.. macam dadah.. seronok masa tgh high... hilang effect cari lagi.. lama-lama nak lebih lagi.. tolerance? sama jela.. benda yang seronok.. mula-mula buat sikit.. seronok sikit.. bila dah seronok sikit.. nak seronok lagi.. dengki lagi.. seronok lagi.. dengki banyak-banyak.. orang lain sedih banyak-banyak.. makin seronok.. tapi sampai bila??? sampai mati nak bergembira di atas kesedihan orang lain? kalau dadah.. at least boleh la nak buat withdrawal therapy.. tapi bak kata prof fadzillah.. 90% relapse.. hurm.. benda jahat mmg susah nak buang.. tekad? azam? iltizam? tue sume kata-kata pakar motivasi.. diorg tak kena.. boleh la cakap.. menda nie ada kaitan dgn otak jgk.. bak kata prof.. 'reward system' orang akan terus rajin belajar kalau sentiasa berjaya... orang akan terus buat baik or control or act jadi baik kalau sentiasa dipuji.. reward system.. samala.. jadi jahat pun seronok..benda yang seronok.. reward system.. kalau nak buang.. excise otak la eh? excise tue mesolimbic? nak sampai mesolimbic kena potong otak weh.. maksudnya kena mati la.. susahkan nak buang benda jahat yang seronok..

benda baik tak selalu datang dalam hidup nie.. kalau datang kita selalu tak perasaan.. atau kadang-kadang tak mampu nak appriciate.. sama la macam cari kulit kerang atau kulit siput mcm kita selalu buat kalau g pantai.. jalan-jalan tepi pantai.. penat.. sangat penat.. nak-nak kalau jalan dalam air.. penatkan? dah tue.. mata plak pandang bawah je.. tak pandang tepi, kiri kanan.. pandang bawah je nak cari yang paling cantik dan terbaik..nama je nak cari yang terbaik.. tapi pandag satu arah.. mcm mana nak jumpa? so banyak la yang miss.. bila dah jumpa satu.. jalan lagi.. nak cari yang lain lagi.. jalan.. jalan lagi.. dan jalan lagi.. dah banyak dah nie kulit kerang.. dah sampai hujung pantai.. mak jerit dari jauh panggil balik.. dah petang... patah balik.. tapi mata masih pandang bawah.. masih mencari.. jalan kat mak... cari lagi.. dan cari.. tapi masih pandang bawah.. kat tangan ada 2,3 kulit kerang/siput yang cantik2.. jumpa lagi.. kutip dan simpan.. jalan.. penat? biasa la.. jalan kalau naik motor kan tak penat.. tapi laju sangat takut miss kulit siput yang cantik.. so.. kena la jalan dan jalan lagi.. jumpa kulit siput.. eh... dia jalan sendiri.. hidup lagi... tak elok amik... dosa.. dia masih nak hidup.. last-last.. mak cakap.. amik yang terbaik je.. tapi semua pun cantik.. cantik tak semestinya terbaik.. terbaik tak semestinya tahan lama.. lama-lama reput jugak..mcm mana nak pilih? takkan nak tan tan tut plak.. tak acikan? tapi mana penah ada benda yang adil didunia ini selain dari Allah.. hurm.. tapi hidup inikan takdir Allah.. jadi semua ini adil la kan.. maknanya.. kena terima dengan seadanya.. entah la..

dah hidup dah 22 tahun lebih dah dekat dunia nie.. puas? gembira? bahagia? dah banyak tengok tempat? nak kata dah puas tak boleh.. banyak benda tak capai.. banyak benda tak tengok.. banyak benda tak rasa.. banyak benda tak belajar.. tak bersyukur? dosa... kalau esok mati? kempunan... nak rancang masa depan? fikir apa nak jadi lagi 10 tahun? .... terlalu jauh ke pandang? tak salah.. tapi kalau awal-awal benda yang dirancang dah terkubur? sedih? kecewa? menyesal? marah? semua tue perasaan.. sedih kejap.. kecewa kejap.. menyesal kejap.. marah sekejap.. perasaan sedih.. selalunya sekejap je.. paling lama pun dua tiga bulan.. kalau tak.. kena jumpa Dr Gan la.. alahai.. takpe.. tenang.. tarik nafas.. rancang balik.. tgk kanan.. tgk kiri.. ingat harapan mak ayah... hidup kena terus.. bukak muka surat baru.. terus buat new planning.. tak susah.. orang meniaga pun ada untung rugi.. niekan hidup.. mesti ada turun naik.. bila dekat atas.. kadang-kadang seronok sangat.. nak pegi atas lagi.. reward systemkan.. lupa? selalu lupa tengok bawah.. lupa jugak kadang-kadang kita gembira diatas kesedihan orang lain.. setiap yang kita gembira.. mesti ada yang sedih.. dapat masuk uni? gembira? ada orang yang tak dapat masuk uni.. sedih.. dapat buat medic? gembira.. orang tak dapat buat medic? sedih.. contoh? banyak.. tak larat nak listkan.. orang kata.. lu fikir la sendiri..

tapi kenapa nak kena fikir orang lain? orang nak marah? orang nak benci? orang tak puas hati? kena fikir ke semua benda nie? masa sedih.. orang lain fikir ke? hm.. kena memberi dan menerima... bila terima.. fikirla yang memberi.. bila memberi.. kena la jugak fikir yang menerima.. penah cakap dulu.. bagi nasihat dekat adik aku.. kalau asyik fikir orang lain.. bila nak maju? kena jadi selfish jugak.. orang yang maju terus kedepan.. tak fikir orang yang dibelakang.. terus jalan.. semak yang dekat depan kena cantas.. licinkan jalan.. kalau jumpa batu besar dekat depan.. belok kanan?belok kiri? panjat batu tue? mana-mana pun boleh.. janji kembali ke tract yang asal.. terus kedepan.. kalau terkebelakang? lari la.. kejar orang yang dekat depan.. orang yang dekat depan takkan patah balik nak pikul kau.. ingat tue.. kena tolong diri sendiri.. kalau dah kat depan.. dah sampai hujung jalan.. baru pandang belakang... kalau rasa nak tolong.. baru patah balik.. tapi tak semua benda boleh buat sendiri.. kena ada kawan.. nak jalan sorang-sorang.. bosan.. kena ada teman borak... sorang bawak roti... sorang bawak mentega.. baru sedap makan rotikan? so kena ada kawan.. hidup tak boleh seorang diri.. kena jaga hati kawan... nanti makan roti kosong plakkan.. tapi Gardenia cakap.. "enak di makan begitu sahaja!!!!" ditambah dgn KFC..."sehingga menjilat jari" so.. kena jaga jugak hati sesetengah orang.. kalau boleh bawa roti dgn mentega sendiri.. baru tak payah jaga hati orang lain.. tapi sarat barat lakan.. tak mampu? manusia mmg lemah..tapi Allah maha kuasa...

hidup akan bahagia bila kita membahagiakan orang.. didoakan agar semua keluargaku.. kawan-kawan.. bahagia.. dirahmati Allah.. dicucuri rahmat.. di murahkan rezeki.. terima kasih kerana disamping.. terutamanya bila aku senang.. susah tak tahu la lagi.. tak penah rasa susah yang amat sangat. tapi.. InsyaAllah.. akan ada yang bersama di kala susah.. tapi tak tau la berapa ramai... minta jauh dari kesusahan.. tapi ujian Allahkan.. esok lusa siapa tahu.. takpe.. takkan diuji kalau tak mampu tahan ujianNya.. InsyaAllah..

a beautiful mind....

last night aku dah spend almost whole night cari cerita nie.. adeh.. aku dah try download.. tapi lambat giler... so.. tak tau mana nak cari.. aku dah penah tgk dah cite nie.. tapi sebab skrg nie aku posting PSY, so teringin la nak cari balik cite nie.. dulu pun tgk cite nie dekat tv3.. lama gak la..

cite nie release tahun 2001.. cite nie diambil dari cite sebenar... cite about John Forbes Nash Jr.. he is one of nobel prize winner.. he won the nobel prize in math and economy kot in 1994.. what so special bout him is.. he was diagnosed with schizophrenia..(a mental disease characterize by psychotic feature and social impairment)...  so could u imagine a genius like him.. carrying such delusion in his mind and still manage to win da great nobel prize... kalau in peace ke tak pela.. nie in math.. hehe.. respect la.. sebab sekarang nie.. dekat ward, aku dapat tgk.. diorg nie selalu ada prob with employment and stigma form society.. so.. diz movie at least can help to remove the stigma on the patient with a mental disease.. and some light at end of the road to them....

dulu masa tgk cite nie just enjoy2 jela.. tapi now i think its really teach and mean sumthing to me.. so if u guys ada masa.. try la download cite nie and cuba menghayati cite nie... its has a lot of moral story. hehe.. first time promote org tgk cite sebab cite tue ada moral story.. hehe.. 

kepada member2 sume.. selamat bercuti.. hari jumaat jangan lupa g ward.. tue nurse2 prof tue skema nak mampus.. tak boleh blah betul.. tak caya tanya ar Kumar.. hehe.. SKEMA nak mampus..!

p/s: sesapa yg ada cite nie.. aku nak pinjam.. tapi kalau korang dkt semenanjung.. toksah la.. tak mendatangkan untung pun.. hehe... thanks in advance..

mari mengarut... bukan Karut.. hehe..

Finally.. i could post something here.. hehe.. so busy lately.. actually i dun hav any specific thing to share ea.. just feel like mengarut ea.. so if u intrested nak read my mengarut post.. go on.. if not.. just stop here.. hehe.. (tak membina langsung)

hurm.. first, about my mum birthday present.. argh.. still not post it to her.. adeh.. never mind.. i told her ald to expect the late delivery... (sori la mama.. anakmu pura-pura busy).. but anyway when i called her on her birthday, she and my family were in PD, enjoying themself there.. ceh.. as usual, i always miss this kind of occasion.. dah la paklong, pakteh and maksu families are all as well.. hm.. nevermind la.. its my fate.. i always away from home.. really envy those people who have a lot of holiday.. (raya haji pun cuti sehari je? syukur la dari tak cuti..).. 

last saturday, sani, azuan, mohad, ridz and i went to Dr Rahaman's house(more to Dr Rahaman's castle..its damn big) in Petrajaya.. just accompanied him becouse his family away to Kl..  he also treat us lunch.. and at night he invite us to watch movie.. but unfurtunately sani and i need to say sorry to the invitation since we had a futsal match with Rifky's team(a guy that i just noe about 10 seconds before ask his phone no for a futsal match... i wish i dare enuf to do so with a girl.. hehe..). Rifky's team was really good and really make us sweat a lot.. luckily we still manage to win.. and i manage to score 3 goals even i play as a defender.. hehe.. so we are looking forward for our next match with his team soon.. they have a few amazing and telanted player.. damn! so after that we went for diner (diner pukul 11.30 malam.. macam supper dah.. hehe.. lapar giler.. dah ar penat.. adeh..) at Jentayu after following Mat's idea and ofcoz after terpengaruh wid him because he told us that the beefsteak there is really nice and CHEAP!! hehe.. but i really menyesal i didnt order the beefsteak.. i order the spaghetti which the taste was ok but.. im hungry dude.. plz gimme extra!!!! hehe.. too little for a guy like me.. lain la kalau for awek2 yg tgh diet.. Penyesalan betul...

so sunday.. routinely i will wake up late.. and since the weather in Kuching recently was really conducive for sleeping activity.. i really cant help to sleep more than i should.. adeh.. so in the sunday evening, im watching the world club cup final.. luckily wazza manage to score and secure the win for man utd! (glory-glory man utd!!!!).. at night then i just realize that i have class with Dr Gan(he is a psycho!) and i still didnt do his assignment.. 3 essays dude!!!! dah la tajuk merapu --> 1. kalau saya seorg penyakit hospital sentosa..2. 10 thing that psy patients and their family want.. and 3. the complication of relapse.. haih.. dah la at midnight got arsenal and liverpool match.. (hehe.. thank God.. liverfool only draw!!)

monday.. monday blues... adeh.. hurm.. 1.50 pm.. i got a bad news.. our application to do our elective posting at Sedang Hospital was rejected!!!! REJECTED!!!! dammit betul.. so now we need to choose other hospital.. our first back up option is hospital Likas.. but due to sum other reason... maybe we going to Seremban Hospital.. haih... stress la diz thing..

p/s: a lot of thing that happen lately.. really make my life miserable.. this is the time where im in the bottom.. but its ok.. i will get up again and go ahead.. there are still many thing to win and too many faces to see and too many heart to share wid... after all.. u dunno what the future will bring.. just keep ur eyes open and ur mind wide.. make sure ur heart is strong and ur soul is alive then tomorow should be a better day for u..

happy birthday Mama!

selamat hari jadi to my mum.. Norzalina bte haron.. dah 43 dah this year.. hehe.. still young and sporting.. sori.. tak dapat nak tulis panjang2.. not feeling well for diz last 2,3 days.. 

i bought her present ad.. but still dun have time to post it yet.. try to post it this evening.. happy birthday again mama.. semoga panjang umur, murah rezeki dan diberkati Allah selalu.. amin.

Al-Fatihah~

Last night.. i suddenly miss my late grandfather so much.. so much dat i really feel like to cry..

it was long ago since i had diz feeling.. but i dunno why last night i feel like really miss him... its a really deep feeling..

he was passed away since i really small if i not mistaken when i was 5 years old.. its mean about 17 years back.. i still remember the date.. 20/10... but i forgot the exact year.. hurm..

i used to stay wid my grandparents at a small village called Kampung Pegoh in the district of Alor Gajah.. and for ur information and if i not mistaken, Chef Wan's grandmother are stay at the same kampung..

so i was grown in a really kampung area i.e im a kampung boy la.. hehe.. i used to mandi sungai, fishing.. melastik.. kena sengat tebuan.. main galah panjang.. and all things that budak kampung will do at that time... but i really not dat notty la because my grandmother sangat la garang.. hehe..

hm.. back to my grandfather story... he was a policeman at Singapore.. during that time, singapore is till a part of malaysia..so he still keep some of his equipment like this 'chota' <-- not sure how its spell, the police's cap, and i still remember when my cousins and i always play 'police and thief or police sentery' <-- masa bdk2 mana tau cakap omputih sangat.. hehe..

he also had a gun @ senapang patah.. so sometimes when my atok went to hunt the 'burung puyuh which at that time can be get easily at my village, i always follow him.. really miss dat day.. hehe.. the gun is very heavy and its taller than me... i can not imagine how small i am at that time.. hehe... but unfortunately after my grandfather passed away, the gun need to return back due to legal problem which i not really know because i really an innocent small kid at that time..

when he pension as a policeman,my father used to drive a taxi.. during the weekend sometimes i will follow him to carry the passenger.. not because i like to follow him but usually after that, he will bring me to melaka town.. (can u imagine the feeling of a kampung boy when bring to a town?).. i really can see in my mind box now... the places that we go.. the emporium that we go.. i think all the emporium are still there in malacca.. but the places was changes a lot for this past 2,3 years.. i also can remember well that everytime he come back home.. he will buy me toys.. its not a big toy but the small2 toy.. i dunno how to describe it~ HEHE.. because of him, i have 2 or 3 boxes full of toys and its still there at my grandmother's house.. its like my treasure~ hehe..

for me.. the most remote memory that i can remember very well is the memory with him and the most clear memory during my childhood is the day that my atok pass away... i really can remember almost everysingle thing i did at that time.. what i really regret is... i not even cry on that day.. i really dun cry even for a drop of tear... i even follow to the graveyard... i really dunno why... right now all the memories on that day come vividly in my mind... i even can see the faces of the people come to my house dat day.. i still remember dat i walk from my house with everyone to the graveyard... 

my grandfather is the one who inspire me to become a doctor.. he had an asthma.. so everytime he had the asthma attack, he will told me with his breathlessness like this.. "qish... nanti dah besar, jadi doktor.. boleh ubatkan atok..." (i can not stop my tears drop~).. insyaAllah in the next 1 and half year or more.. i will become a doctor.. i hope he will be happy.. and i also hope he will be happy 'there'... atok, thanks for inspiring me to become a doctor.. i think without ur inspiration, i will be an engineer, teacher or anything other than doctor.. and after all.... semuanya itu qada' and qadar dari ALLAH.. hanya Allah yang mengetahui ajal, jodoh, rezeki dan tanah kubur kita.....

Al-fatihah to the late Haron bin Hashim...

i need a weekend!

This week is such a superduper busy week for me.. i really can not even breath this week..
Its started when i woke up on last saturday... i study for a while before went to my patient house to clerk her for my case write up... after finish that i back home around 4 and after Asar prayer, i went to collage to help out for the preparation of Raya haji..
that night, after dinner i try to read a few notes before watching Man Utd match..
on sunday, i spend most of the time at collage, help out what ever thing that i can lend my hand.. and that night also i spend my time there..
so monday is a the Hari raya Haji.. like always, we went to Sembahyang raya and do our ibadah korban at at the night there some kind of dinner at collage.. i quite enjoying it but i think wat i did for the whole 2 days is just taking picture.. hehe..
so tuesday i busy with classes and and finish my class at 5 and at night i need to struggle to transfer a 2 and half hour interview audio record into writing format.. and i finish it at 3 am in the morning..
so wed, i had clinic with prof fadzillah.. at his clinic i just realize a few thing that i still not cover or even read back.. so i really blur in his clinic.. so i guess he must be upset at me.. then we proceed to case presentation by nonoy.. personally i think nonoy presentation was the best so far.. so i really dun hav anything to ask regarding her case.. but supprisely, prof fadzillah throwing a 1001 bombs and bullet to her and if i were at her place i will surely stress and now i really stress because my turn to present case is tomorow and i not even prepare a single slide for my presentation... i really can not concentrate my mind on the evening class because i keep on thinking about my presentation...
so after a whole day at sentosa hospital, rush back to my room and start to prepare my presentation. its really hard because i need to care all the detail or else i will bombarded by questions from my colleague and of coz, prof fadzillah, the only psychopharmacologist in Malaysia.. so i really struggle that night and only menage to complete my presentation at 5.30 in the morning and i have grand ward round at 8 that day.. so i just manage to sleep for about 1 and half hour before everybody keep on bother me to wake up for class... (thanks friends...)
that day i feel very miserable and really blur for da CPC.. and after cpc, i really thanks to Allah becouse prof fadzillah can not take my case presentation because he had something up in the evening.. so i present my case to dr saw win.. what a relieve?
so one thing settle..... now i need to think about another problem.... i need to to finish my case write up which need to be submit at 3 pm tomorow.. dammit!!!! i really stress.. and that night i spend the whole night in front my laptop, try to finish my case write up who will contribute 10 marks for my Psy posting.. i sleep at 3 because i really can not tahan anymore.. i continue it at 10 and only manage to complete it at 2.45 pm and i print my case write up and rush to the faculty to submit it.. then 3.30 i had CPC which end at 5.30 pm...

finally its the weekend.. i really need a sleep now.. ZZZZZZZZZZzZzzZzzzzzzzzzzZZZZ

Selamat Hari Raya AidilAdha :)

Assalammualikum...

i just want to take diz opportunity to wish all my muslim friends happy Aid aidiladha...

Korban.. or sacrifice.. adalah satu benda yang penting dalam hidup kita.. terutamanya dalam mengejar cita-cita dan harapan

kalau dilihat dari sudut seorang pelajar.. mungkin ramai yang tak mampu yang nak berkorban dalam aspek binatang sembelihan... tapi dalam tak sedar.. banyak benda yang boleh kita korban demi mengejar cita-cita.. contohnya.. tak tgk tv masa weekend semata-mata nak buat revision.. sanggup bersengkang mata study sampai tgh2 malam and bangun awal pagi.. pendek kata.. banyak la pengorbanan yang kena buat kalau nak jadi pelajar yang berjaya di dunia dan di akhirat.. walaupun aku tak dapat berkorban untuk tidak menonton bola yang main pagi2 buta dikala kelas prof fadzillah pada pukul 8 pagi esoknya..

Bila dah berkorban.. (kononnya nak jadi best student la).. kita sering kali lupa dengan pengorbanan yang orang lain lakukan untuk kita.. contoh nya..

1. ibubapa: berapa banyak duit dan masa diorg korbankan untuk kita berjaya menjadi seorang insan yang berguna... pergh.. kalau nak ingat2 balik pengorbanan yang dibuat oleh parents aku dekat aku sampai aku ke menara gading nie.. dari aku kecik ke besar.. memang orang kata.. boleh leleh la.. memang sampai bila2 pun tak tertanding la pengorbanan yang diorg buat untuk kitakan..... so.. hargailah ibubapa anda... nak2 kalau mereka masih lagi di dunia.. kelak bila mereka dah pergi.. tiada siapa pun yang dapat ganti tempat mereka..

2. Guru-guru dan para lecturer: diorang pun banyak berkorban untuk kita semua.. terutamanya dari segi masa... ada yang buat extra classes semata-mata nak tolong kita.. walaupun ada jugak escape masa diorang buat extra class sebab nak g dating dgn awek or sebab nak g main futsal...

3. adik beradik: diorang nie pun banyak berkorban.. dan selalunya kita jarang nampak pengorbanan mereka.. yela.. ada kakak or abang2 yang sanggup tak nak mintak duit dekat dekat parents kita semata-mata fikir kalau diorg mintak extra pocket money.. parents kita tak de extra plak nak hantar kita g tution or beli buku-buka exercise untuk kita.. or maybe ada yang sanggup spend weekend diorang untuk jaga kita masa weekend or ajar kita buat revision..

4.Kawan-kawan: mereka pun banyak berkorban untuk kita.. terutamanya bagi yang duduk jauh dari ibu bapa.. kawan-kawan memang la banyak bantu membantu.. saling berkorban.. contohnya.. ada yang sanggup bagi pinjam buku.. bagi pinjam duit.. buat tution untuk tolong kawan-kawan yang lemah.. buat study group sama2..

5.GF or BF: yang part nie.. memang selalu berkorban la.. bak kata P.Ramlee.. berkorban apa sahaja.. harta atau pun nyawa... hehe.. tapi tak selalunya berkorban.. tapi yang memahami tue.. memang bagus.. contonya.. sanggup bangun awal sebab nak kejutkan gf or bf diorg untuk bangun study.. sanggup tak nak kacau (sms or call) masa their partner nak exam.. (menda yang paling susah aku nak tgk di kalangan kawan2 aku.. dan kadang2 diri aku sendiri.. kwang..kwang.. kwang..) hehe..

so.. kesimpulannya.. kita mesti la menghargai setiap orang yang berada di sekitar kita sebab mereka nie la yang selalu membantu or akan membantu kita dikala kita susah.. setiap orang ada fungsi masing-masing dalam hidup kita.. even musuh sendiri pun ada fungsi dalam hidup kita (kalau kita lihat dalam sudut yang positive la..--> at least kita tau ada orang yang mencari kelemahan or kesalahan kita.. sekurang-kurangnya.. kita nampak ruang untuk memperbaiki diri.InsyaAllah) 

P/s:(buat fatah.. Jangan kutuk2 sangat Man utd beb... ramai lagi fans man utd yang kau tak kenal.. nak kutuk member kau pun... kutuk jela dekat fs dia.. tak payah la antar bulletin.. melampau giler.. kalau takat chelsea menang dengan sunderland 5-0, nampak sangat la sunderland tak cuak dgn chelsea.. diorg main open.. masa main dgn man utd semalam, 11 player dia sume ada dalam diorg punya area... aku tak sempat la nak kira player diorg tak termasuk goal keeper diorang yang ada dalam penalty box diorg.. so.. jangan  la tgk goal je kalau nak compare kehebatan team tue.. byk menda lain nak compare.. dont be so prejudice.. kau pun bukan hebat sangat pasal bola nie.. sori la.. aku tak tgk chelsea punya game.. sebab bagi aku chelsea punya game is the most boring game in the league.. lagi best tgk aston villa punya game.. kalau nak kutuk fans chelsea yang aku kenal, tak cukup page nak kutuk.. tapi tue bola je.. takde maknanya kalau kau nak gaduh2.. kutuk2.. kau bukan dapat apa pun kalau diorg menang,, just dapat rasa seronok sorang/dgn sama2 fan chelsea n dapat kutuk team yang kalah..)

To Datuk mukhriz, Malaysian politician and my fellow countryman

ur idea about the school system is fantastic(even its actually Tun Razak original idea.. but still a credit for ur brave to bring up the idea back).. but as u and all malaysian know.. the idea just will bring a new issue that they can play in the media and can be another political weapon for some people who just think about their own stake or maybe to gain some popularity during this stormy political season in Malaysia and especially when the issue of racial prejudice can make the paper sold out.. i just think the school idea is a good idea even u take it from any aspect.. but still.. good thing is always unacceptable when someone have their own interest on it... i just feel funny when every suddenly realize that there is a law that u can not touch certain thing e.g the vernacular issue that u rase.. but they always forget that they are the one who always questioning about the bumiputra special right.. im not being racist here.. but come on guys.. u really get mad when people try to touch ur right.. u even want to abolish the sedation act but tomorrow u ask people to be detain under the sedation act..

so.. actually all my fellow malaysian... dont u think this politician are just fighting for their own popularity... for their own people.. for their own party.. for a vote.. if the idea is a good thing to do to bring our next future generation under one roof.. learn the same thing.. eat together.. play together.. would it be nice? so next come the meritrocrasi... now its fair if we use the meritrocrasi.. everyone can have a fair chance to get the scholarship.. everyone can be the prime minister of Malaysia... we dont even look at the skin colour... we really can develop the wat so called MALAYSIAN NATION..

personally i think its just a fantastic idea.. even it was rejected in the past.. but if we need to grow up as a strong nation.. we must start to get together since the school age. i think the idea was rejected in the past because we are so young and immature and everyone are so afraid and we are so orientated to our origin... i think the Malaysian are mature enuf to decide the best think for improvement... good idea is still a good idea...

Malaysia oh Tanah airku~

“Jika ada yang menolak cadangan ini, mereka perlu menjelaskan sebab-sebab mereka menentangnya. Bagaimana mungkin mereka bercakap mengenai perpaduan dan mempersoalkan hak-hak orang Melayu dan pada masa sama masih berkeras untuk mengamalkan sistem sekolah berbeza bagi kaum mereka?

“Kalau kita mahu hak yang sama rata, kita tidak boleh mempunyai sistem pendidikan berbeza. Kita tidak boleh mendapatkan kek dan mahu makan kesemuanya,” kata beliau.

Dalam pada itu, Mukhriz berkata, semua pihak khususnya pemimpin parti-parti komponen BN perlu berhenti mengeluarkan kenyataan-kenyataan yang boleh meregangkan hubungan antara mereka, termasuk membangkitkan isu ketuanan Melayu.

Beliau yang melihat isu itu sebagai perkembangan yang tidak sihat berkata, sejak akhir-akhir ini banyak kenyataan dibuat oleh pemimpin parti komponen BN yang mampu menaikkan kemarahan orang Melayu, khususnya ahli-ahli UMNO.

“Sekiranya mereka berdegil dan terus mengeluarkan kenyataan berkaitan isu ketuanan Melayu, janganlah pula terkejut jika orang Melayu mula membuat reaksi balasan mengenai apa yang dianggap mereka sebagai ketuanan ekonomi kaum bukan Melayu di negara kita.

“Jadi eloklah kita elakkan polemik ini kerana walau apa pun yang dikatakan mengenai isu ketuanan Melayu, orang Melayu tidak pernah merasakan mereka tuan apabila bercakap tentang ekonomi negara,” katanya. (utusan Malaysia 2/12/2008) --> Read the full text

I cant wait to hear da respond from MCA, MIC, DAP, PKR, PAS, PPP.... or anyone on Datuk Mukhriz statement (i think he just hit them right to their face)... i just hate it when people arguing about all the racial issues and all the racial equality but at the end of the day... they are all just like the UMNO people... RACIAL BASTARD! but as we all know.. this people who call themselves a politician.. will do their job.. and play around with their statement and make this as a nation big political issues and just cari idea to gain their popularity...

Thanks all the politician.. u wasting my parents and my countryman tax money.. debating on silly thing in the parliment and talk very2 much while do really2 little.. HAIL MALAYSIAN POLITICIAN!!!!

foochikuk

diz last 2,3 days... my life was really flat...anhedonia.. (saje je nak masukkan medical term gak...)
nothing so interesting to share with...
hurgh...
im so lame... luckily not as bad like dinie tumaisuri..

case untuk presentation next week pun tak de lagi...
aduhai... tetiba terasa stress la plak... adeh..(macha... sertraline kurang manis satu!)

To those yang tgh holiday tue... (rasa mcm terlambat je nak wish... ah.. wish jugak)
Selamat berholiday dan diharap jangan disamakan mcm perabot dekat depan Tv tue...
tolong2 la mak ayah... (mcm aku selalu tolong je.. adeh) <-- mode homesick

tapi hari nie ada rasa nak sepak orang... kepada mamat tue.. kalau hang tak tukar gak menda alah tue lagi 2,3 ari lagi.. gua memang sound direct lu.. and kalau respond kurang baik.. memang nak makan penyepak..

pesanan penaja: gunakanlah cara berhikmah untuk menyelesaikan masalah.. kekerasan membawa kesakitan... kesakitan membawa kedendaman... kedendaman membawa ke perasaan yang tak best.. bila tak best.. mesti rasa nak sepak orang.. so... jangan guna kekerasan.. (maafkan di atas segala kesalahan tatabahasa yang tidak dapat dielakkan disitu.. saya budak dah tak makan ajar)