23.2.14

Update...

assalammualaikum.. its been very long time since the last entry in this blog.. alhamdulillah.. im still alive.. update so far? i completed my housemanship.. now im doing my master in internal medicine and pass my part 1 mrcp.. im no longer single and married with my lovely wife Dr. Hazira Bt Zulkafli.. now im no longer with ministry of health.. instead now im with Ministry of higher education and become a trainee lecturer in International Islamic University Malaysia.. hopefully more entery will be added in future.. wait for my next entry.. insyaAllah...

16.1.12

where is my damn allowance

shift or so called flexi schedule for housemanship has been around since September 2011. there are many issues uprising since its implementation but everything have its own ups and down. after about 5 months everybody from the consultant, specialist, medical officer, houseman and staff nurses already able to coping with the new system, everybody seem to except the pro and cons of the systems, even personally i prefer to be back to oncall system.
the rm600 per month allowance for the flexi system have been due since september, means if govt will pay for the allowance, the houseman will get about rm3000 cash in the paycheck.. but sadly the promise is always a promise and govt will be a govt, and for sure if they gonna pay the allowance, they will pay it before the general election.. but do they really bother the minority of the houseman in the community or in the parliamentary seat? they dun bother coz houseman only contribute too tiny percentage of the voter and most of them dun even registered as a voter and if they registered, how many of them will have time to vote?
everyone of us can only weaning and weeping to each other.. or probably if we given the better option by the opposition we could consider our tiny number to be counted in the opposition ballot boxes?
we r human, and 600 per months is a lots of money, so where is my damn allowance?

24.12.11

butcher

My beloved prof used to teach me that a surgeon should have the heart of a tiger, the eye of the eagle and the hand of a lady and he describe further that a surgeon is an operating physician.. But in real life, I personally think that some of them is a butcher.. I know some of them are good, or perhaps they are not a surgeon yet.. I dunno.. Depressed.

8.7.11

bersih the dirty..

Bersih.. Aku kurang pasti apa yg berlaku.. Ignorance perhaps.. Malas nak amik port.. Dari yg serba sedikit yg aku tahu.. Mereka nie kurang percaya dgn system pilihanraya di malaysia... Sejauh mana mereka xpuas hati.. Aku pun pasti..
Logik akal.. Opposition menang 5 negeri last election.. And deny 2/3 majority BN.. Jadi.. Maknanya.. Mereka pun menipu la masa election? Atau jika dan hanya jika diaorg menang all the seat dlm parlimen baru la nak ckp yg system election di malaysia nie betul?
Bagi aku.. Kalau nak fikir logic.. Semua org pun boleh nampak agenda disebalik benda nie.. Sekadar memperbesarkan isu yg entah iya.. Entah tidak.. Semata-mata nak mencemarkan keharmonian.. Kesejahteraan negara Malaysia tercinta ini? Berapa byk kesusahan yg terjadi akibat perhimpunan sia-sia ini?
Atau mungkin sekadar menarik perhatian rakyat terhadap isu video seks pemimpin kanan pembangkang yg sebelum ini hangat diperkatakan?
Di internet, boleh dibaca banyak pandangan tokoh2 agama terhadap isu ini.. Malang sekali.. Tiada yg sepakat.. Masing-masing dgn hujah dan dalil masing-masing.. Hal ini secara terang dan jelas menujukkan yg agama Islam itu sendiri bercanggah? Mungkinkah in matlamat utama penganjur? Atau salah satu kesan buruk secara langsung dari bersih ini?
Entah la.. Aku sendiri keliru..

1.7.11

first impression

Yeah.. I just lipis.. Just take a short round in lipis.. I think I just love the town.. Better than wat I expect.. My first impression is good.. I dunno why.. I can feel the peaceful life here which is wat I seek for for now... Its remind a lot about the town where I grew up at alor gajah.. I think its slightly bigger than Alor Gajah and its make me feel like.. I'm fine to be here.. I have spent my life longer than this at a smaller town.. And to time fly.. I'm a doctor here for a month..
Tomorrow is my fist day at hosp kuala lipis.. So hopefully the hosp, the staff are nice.. Like me :p

23.6.11

a question perhaps?

its take 3 second and 3 words to tell someone ur feeling.. I love U
perhaps its take 3 hours to explain in detail how the feeling is..
but its take the whole life to prove it...

when we dun have the 3 seconds.. and we dun have the the 3 hours.. could we spend the whole life to prove it?

question.. but i guess i will never found the answer unless i die... but if in case if i die now.. i dunno i will still have the answer or not.. cause at the moment.. i feel empty.

sometimes.. we desperately want something.. but we forget things that we really need..

20.6.11

xsetuju

ternampak tadi dekat fb ada page Allah... hurm.. aku kurang setuju dengan page nie.. yela.. nie dah mcm menyamakan Allah tue dgn makhluk... mungkin niat org tue baik.. tapi tak elok la.. aku xdapat nak huraikan ketidak puas hatian aku dgn lebih detail since aku takut tersalah cakap... ilmu aku tentang ketuhanan nie cetek sangat.. tapi secara terang dan bersuluh aku tidak bersetuju kalau ada page or group Allah.. lebih sesuai rasanya group or page Islam.. Allah nie Tuhan...

18.6.11

the lost

So far setahun xde gf... Hidup boleh go on seperti biasa... Tapi after a week without laptop.. Pergh.. Carca marba hidup aku.. Hari nie lepak jeram.. Tgk org dgn slr.. Telan air liur je aku.. Hurm...nasib badan...
Yang paling aku sedih mengenangkan segala document.. Notes... Pictures.. Songs... Yang ada dalam laptop tue.. Yela.. Laptop boleh beli lagi.. Patah tumbuh hilang berganti.. Tapi collection dan memories? Haih...

12.6.11

D.I.A.M

Diam tanda setuju...
Diam mungkin segalanya...
Diam tanda marah...
Memendam rasa menahan amarah...
Diam tanda berfikir...
Masa depan.. Perancangan teliti..
Diam mungkin kesepian...
Tiada lawan bicara.. Tiada teman hidup..
Diam mungkin keamanan..
Jauh dari hingar bingar pekik lolong..
Diam itu ketenangan..
Diam itu kebosanan..
Diam itu keharmonian..
Masa dan ketika mendefinasikan diam..
Diam mungkin melupakan..
Atau dilupai...
Diam itu mungkin personaliti..
Tabiat..
Sikap..
Amalan...
Diam itu mungkin segalanya..
Diam mungkin menjauhi diri..
Memberi ruang dan masa..
Kadang kala lebih baik diam dari bersuara...
kalau selalu diam menjadi penyakit hati...
Aku memilih diam dari bersuara....

5.6.11

Cikgu mendidik...
Polis tanggap org jahat..
Setiap org ada peranan masing2.
Student belajar..
Pencuri mencuri...
Masing-masing ada tugas masing2...
Siapa la doktor tanpa pesakit..
Siapa la artis tanpa peminat..
Kita semua wujud sebab org lain..
Kita mungkin ayah.. Mak.. Abang.. Kakak or adik kepada someone..
Someone maybe husband.. Wife.. Bf or gf kepada kita...
Kita adalah seseorg kepada org lain tanpa kita sedar...
Hidup kita mesti dalam satu segi bermakna kepada hidup lain..
Either in a good way or the other way round...
Kadang2 terpulang kepada kita nak decide yg mana satu...
Cuma kadang-kadang tak semestinya org tue bermakna dalam hidup kita.. Kita nie bermakna dalam hidup dia..
So.. Sendiri mau ingat la.. Kan?