the hardest.. the sweeter..

sometimes... we forget that a simple decision we make today will change the fate of ourself.. people around you and perhaps the world... but u dunno when and how u end up making the decision.. because u never know what will happen in next minute.. next week. next month.. next year or next 10 years.. and that why sometimes.. i think.. we need to look back and think....

we think and we think.. something we think we made a right choice... and we will feel glad... and we just keep moving and perhaps take a sometimes in the future to think about it back and say to ourself.. yeah.. i made a right decision and here i am.... but.. sometimes.. we do have our own regret.. we do make mistake.. from time to time.. but sadly.. we always at a one place at a one time.. and at time.. we never can turn back time.. so.. we move on.. and live in regret.. agony.. seeking for redemption... that we could never get...

i just wish and i pray.. if i will given any chance to make decision.. i will make the best decision for me.. my family.. people around me.. and everyone.. but we will never satisfied everyone.. so.. maybe for most of the people...... but we always influence by situation.. pressure.. lack of knowledge.. lack of faith.. and most of the time.. lust.. and greedy...

lately.. i think.. i feel empty.. sometimes.. i feel lonely.. things not like it used to be... but.. that what happened when we talk about time right? we change.. people change.. everyone change... when the clock is moving.. people is moving on too... and i afraid to be left behind.. but sometimes.. still.. its hard to catch up...

never mind.. we always can blame the fate.. some people was born to be a noble... some in a slavery.. its ur fate.. but u need and u can change the fate.. hopefully from bad to good.. from good to better.. but again... we cant forget the almighty power behind everything.. every creature.... so.. pray...

in future.. i will and i need to make a decision.. i need to choose.. i need to take the right path.. and i hope.. i will make a good one.. i will take the right one.. i pray...

passport.. aircond.. alignment and Garmin :)

hari nie.. lepas smayang subuh tadi.. aku niat nak pegi jog.. tapi baring2... alih.. terlelap and terjaga balik kul 9.. cis.. tersasar target aku.. nak g jogging and nak g immigration buat passport.. so aku terus bangun mandi and pegi immigration dekat pusat bandar damansara.. sampai sana.. dah nak dekat kul 11.. hehe.. nasib baik la ada seorg sahabat lama yang kerja sana.. tak sampai sejam.. passport aku berjaya disiapkan.. hehe.. walaupun terasa agak jahat.. tapi~~~~ err.. takde tapi2 lagi.. dah siap pun passport tue.. hehe..

lepas tue g minum jap dgn member aku masa lunch hour.. borak2.. banyak gak cerita dgn dia.. yela.. kenal dia pun masa blaja driving dulu.. nak masuk uni pun dulu.. bapak dia yang tolong copkan sijil2 aku.. dah tue.. terlost contact sikit.. skrg nie.. tau2 dia dah tunang.. hehe.. balik tue aku bayar parking.. terkejut aku kena bayar rm9.. siot~

balik.. g subang jap.. g amik installer.. memandangkan aircond mrs baqlish aku dah out of gas.. so g la tambah gas kejap.. cis.. keluar lagi rm35.. tapi, rasa berbaloi sebab lepas tue rasa macam duduk dalam peti sejuk.. kalau tak.. berpeluh2 aku dalam keta.. hehe.. baru la keta malaysia bak kata kepet :P

before balik umah.. g makan jap dgn kepet.. balik umah aku g buat alignment dekat kedai depan nie.. so.. skrg mrs baqlish dah fit nak buat her journey to JB diz friday... hehe.. biar dia merasa jalan PLUS yang terkenal diseluruh dunia tue :P

aku baru je lepas intstall garmin dekat hp cikai aku.. dgn harapan aku xkan sesat lagi bila drive dekat kl or dekat mana2 sahaje.. hehe.. bangga!

holiday

this is a first entry after i officially graduated from medical school and become a doctor.. hehe.. but at the moment.. i have a perhaps longest holiday in my life before my retirement.. hehe.. tue pun kalau panjang umur dan dimurahkan rezeki.... so.. my life now is all about sleep.. eating.. sleep and eating.. i guess i should make my life a little crazy.. so.. why dun make a list of possible crazy thing i could do during this period of menganggur di rumah :P

1. jalan2 ronda semenanjung..... sorang2???? hehe.. budget?? alahai~ idaman dari zaman lepas sekolah nie.. tapi masih tak kesampaian..

2. g round europe..

3.tulis buku.. good idea.. baru terfikir..

4.buat kerja part time.. hehe.. diz is not a good idea.. dun want to waste my holiday with work..

5.g join social work.. actually tgh tunggu ustaz suhardi calling2 nie.. katanya nak g ikut abim punya activity dekat interior sarawak.. entah bila..

6.ajar tution? erk... kurang sabar dalam mendidik..

7.join marathon.. ada marathon pape tak skrg?

8 g tgk concert.. ada concert or gigs yg best tak skrg?

9. learn mandarin.. urgh.. i should!!!!!

10. g jb and help my dad run Jom Bali??? urgh.. maybe~~ if i so damn boring later...

so.. any idea how to spend another 1 or 2 months without enuf money and nothing to do?