the hardest.. the sweeter..

sometimes... we forget that a simple decision we make today will change the fate of ourself.. people around you and perhaps the world... but u dunno when and how u end up making the decision.. because u never know what will happen in next minute.. next week. next month.. next year or next 10 years.. and that why sometimes.. i think.. we need to look back and think....

we think and we think.. something we think we made a right choice... and we will feel glad... and we just keep moving and perhaps take a sometimes in the future to think about it back and say to ourself.. yeah.. i made a right decision and here i am.... but.. sometimes.. we do have our own regret.. we do make mistake.. from time to time.. but sadly.. we always at a one place at a one time.. and at time.. we never can turn back time.. so.. we move on.. and live in regret.. agony.. seeking for redemption... that we could never get...

i just wish and i pray.. if i will given any chance to make decision.. i will make the best decision for me.. my family.. people around me.. and everyone.. but we will never satisfied everyone.. so.. maybe for most of the people...... but we always influence by situation.. pressure.. lack of knowledge.. lack of faith.. and most of the time.. lust.. and greedy...

lately.. i think.. i feel empty.. sometimes.. i feel lonely.. things not like it used to be... but.. that what happened when we talk about time right? we change.. people change.. everyone change... when the clock is moving.. people is moving on too... and i afraid to be left behind.. but sometimes.. still.. its hard to catch up...

never mind.. we always can blame the fate.. some people was born to be a noble... some in a slavery.. its ur fate.. but u need and u can change the fate.. hopefully from bad to good.. from good to better.. but again... we cant forget the almighty power behind everything.. every creature.... so.. pray...

in future.. i will and i need to make a decision.. i need to choose.. i need to take the right path.. and i hope.. i will make a good one.. i will take the right one.. i pray...