im an idiot

im stupid and im an idiot...
why? its im really an idiot? well.. got some people will say that im a smart person... and many will say that im not dat fool even sometimes i look like one.. erk.. not sometimes.. perharp most of the time i look like a fool... but most of the time i dun want to look dumb and being an idiot... and i will really get angry when someone call me idiot or wat so ever word is similar to idiot.. stupid.. fool or dumb...
but i do sometimes call some people idiot.. especially some politician especially anwar ibarahim(hate diz guy) and some other guys no matter they are govt or opposition and those not either but talking nonsense like there are one of them eventho they know nothing.. those who taking care the parking lots in da whole kuching city(why they must have the a parking coupon{WHICH U NEED TO PUNCH HOLE ON IT ACCORDING TO DATE AND TIME} which is for 1st half an hour and then the another coupon for the next 1 hour and why they must use the coupon system where the other part of the world are using the better way of collecting the parking fee).. some stupid driver(especially those who are retarded and using hp while driving but acting like they own the road by driving in the middle of the road and drive like 30 km/h and some more the driver who like to day dream even when the red trafic light turn to green.. hello macha.. jalan la!!!!)
i not writing thing to complaint about all those thing up there.. but.. for da last 1 and half week.. this fellow make me feel like a complete idiot.. now i keep on wonder.. why im in the medical school? what did i learn for almost 4 years in medical school? what the hell of thing i hav been reading for diz while and nothing stuck in my mind? im i ready to become a doctor in the less than 1 and half year? insyaAllah... do someone in the higher education ministry know my father or mother or even know me then they decide to accept my application to medical school? i cant recall if i ever bribe anyone to enter this medical course.. duh..then how they can accept an idiot like me (and friends..hehe..)<-- i dun want to be idiot alone..

Even if i make a relative comparison (which i always do) between me and this guy.. its like comparing a monkey to a human being.. im the monkey and he is a mare human..am i really dat cheap and idiot? do i still in my dream? i wish i wake up as soon as possible because to become an idiot is the last thing i wish.. even i never really had a wish list.. hehe.. but its a reality dude.. infront of this guy.. im really an idiot.. this not me being down to the earth.. or being sarcastic or wat so ever.. its so true.. i dunno how to explain how true this fact because its so true! hehe..
this guy is Dr Pubalan.. with a high respect to u sir.. f.u.i sir.. i dun mind if u r calling me idiot or monkey or wat so ever.. infront of u.. im a complete idiot.. but sorry if one day u wake up and u brain is no longer in ur head because i eat it ald.. hehe.. just one of my stupid joke.... the end~


p/s: if u r reading this.. it doesnt mean u can call me an idiot.. i reserve it to him only.. hehe..