butcher

My beloved prof used to teach me that a surgeon should have the heart of a tiger, the eye of the eagle and the hand of a lady and he describe further that a surgeon is an operating physician.. But in real life, I personally think that some of them is a butcher.. I know some of them are good, or perhaps they are not a surgeon yet.. I dunno.. Depressed.

bersih the dirty..

Bersih.. Aku kurang pasti apa yg berlaku.. Ignorance perhaps.. Malas nak amik port.. Dari yg serba sedikit yg aku tahu.. Mereka nie kurang percaya dgn system pilihanraya di malaysia... Sejauh mana mereka xpuas hati.. Aku pun pasti..
Logik akal.. Opposition menang 5 negeri last election.. And deny 2/3 majority BN.. Jadi.. Maknanya.. Mereka pun menipu la masa election? Atau jika dan hanya jika diaorg menang all the seat dlm parlimen baru la nak ckp yg system election di malaysia nie betul?
Bagi aku.. Kalau nak fikir logic.. Semua org pun boleh nampak agenda disebalik benda nie.. Sekadar memperbesarkan isu yg entah iya.. Entah tidak.. Semata-mata nak mencemarkan keharmonian.. Kesejahteraan negara Malaysia tercinta ini? Berapa byk kesusahan yg terjadi akibat perhimpunan sia-sia ini?
Atau mungkin sekadar menarik perhatian rakyat terhadap isu video seks pemimpin kanan pembangkang yg sebelum ini hangat diperkatakan?
Di internet, boleh dibaca banyak pandangan tokoh2 agama terhadap isu ini.. Malang sekali.. Tiada yg sepakat.. Masing-masing dgn hujah dan dalil masing-masing.. Hal ini secara terang dan jelas menujukkan yg agama Islam itu sendiri bercanggah? Mungkinkah in matlamat utama penganjur? Atau salah satu kesan buruk secara langsung dari bersih ini?
Entah la.. Aku sendiri keliru..

first impression

Yeah.. I just lipis.. Just take a short round in lipis.. I think I just love the town.. Better than wat I expect.. My first impression is good.. I dunno why.. I can feel the peaceful life here which is wat I seek for for now... Its remind a lot about the town where I grew up at alor gajah.. I think its slightly bigger than Alor Gajah and its make me feel like.. I'm fine to be here.. I have spent my life longer than this at a smaller town.. And to time fly.. I'm a doctor here for a month..
Tomorrow is my fist day at hosp kuala lipis.. So hopefully the hosp, the staff are nice.. Like me :p

a question perhaps?

its take 3 second and 3 words to tell someone ur feeling.. I love U
perhaps its take 3 hours to explain in detail how the feeling is..
but its take the whole life to prove it...

when we dun have the 3 seconds.. and we dun have the the 3 hours.. could we spend the whole life to prove it?

question.. but i guess i will never found the answer unless i die... but if in case if i die now.. i dunno i will still have the answer or not.. cause at the moment.. i feel empty.

sometimes.. we desperately want something.. but we forget things that we really need..

xsetuju

ternampak tadi dekat fb ada page Allah... hurm.. aku kurang setuju dengan page nie.. yela.. nie dah mcm menyamakan Allah tue dgn makhluk... mungkin niat org tue baik.. tapi tak elok la.. aku xdapat nak huraikan ketidak puas hatian aku dgn lebih detail since aku takut tersalah cakap... ilmu aku tentang ketuhanan nie cetek sangat.. tapi secara terang dan bersuluh aku tidak bersetuju kalau ada page or group Allah.. lebih sesuai rasanya group or page Islam.. Allah nie Tuhan...

the lost

So far setahun xde gf... Hidup boleh go on seperti biasa... Tapi after a week without laptop.. Pergh.. Carca marba hidup aku.. Hari nie lepak jeram.. Tgk org dgn slr.. Telan air liur je aku.. Hurm...nasib badan...
Yang paling aku sedih mengenangkan segala document.. Notes... Pictures.. Songs... Yang ada dalam laptop tue.. Yela.. Laptop boleh beli lagi.. Patah tumbuh hilang berganti.. Tapi collection dan memories? Haih...

D.I.A.M

Diam tanda setuju...
Diam mungkin segalanya...
Diam tanda marah...
Memendam rasa menahan amarah...
Diam tanda berfikir...
Masa depan.. Perancangan teliti..
Diam mungkin kesepian...
Tiada lawan bicara.. Tiada teman hidup..
Diam mungkin keamanan..
Jauh dari hingar bingar pekik lolong..
Diam itu ketenangan..
Diam itu kebosanan..
Diam itu keharmonian..
Masa dan ketika mendefinasikan diam..
Diam mungkin melupakan..
Atau dilupai...
Diam itu mungkin personaliti..
Tabiat..
Sikap..
Amalan...
Diam itu mungkin segalanya..
Diam mungkin menjauhi diri..
Memberi ruang dan masa..
Kadang kala lebih baik diam dari bersuara...
kalau selalu diam menjadi penyakit hati...
Aku memilih diam dari bersuara....

Cikgu mendidik...
Polis tanggap org jahat..
Setiap org ada peranan masing2.
Student belajar..
Pencuri mencuri...
Masing-masing ada tugas masing2...
Siapa la doktor tanpa pesakit..
Siapa la artis tanpa peminat..
Kita semua wujud sebab org lain..
Kita mungkin ayah.. Mak.. Abang.. Kakak or adik kepada someone..
Someone maybe husband.. Wife.. Bf or gf kepada kita...
Kita adalah seseorg kepada org lain tanpa kita sedar...
Hidup kita mesti dalam satu segi bermakna kepada hidup lain..
Either in a good way or the other way round...
Kadang2 terpulang kepada kita nak decide yg mana satu...
Cuma kadang-kadang tak semestinya org tue bermakna dalam hidup kita.. Kita nie bermakna dalam hidup dia..
So.. Sendiri mau ingat la.. Kan?

S.H.E

she is ordinary but she is so special to me.. She is plain but she make my life so colourful... She look simple but she make me feel complicated... She is nice.. But she make me feel bad... She is a reality but she make me dream all the time... She is not mine but I want to make her mine.. She dun care about me but I really care about her.. She always forget me.. But she always in my mind..

2 days of my life

I just realize since last friday till today.. I have been working around the clock..EOD oncall x3.. Sound pathetic.. And today I'm not oncall.. And I have tomorow before another EOD x 3.. Then I will only have time for myself for sleep bath and shit at prn basis.. Regret? Nope.. Just feel pathetic and kinda a loser because finally I have a chance to ponder about my life.. A deep think about myself.. What I want in life..about future...
Life is been great so far.. Good job.. Good car.. Good clothes.. Happy family... But as most of my friend are getting married and get out from our single circle.. I started to feel empty and lonely.. Sound desperate.. Yes.. I'm young.. But I believe this is human nature.. And I should start thinking about it.... I start to look at other people with their family.. Esp a young couple with their baby.. Which I have been seen so many time since I'm in my OnG posting....
Option.. Of coz.. But sori if I hurt u.. U might be perfect.. But u can't make me feel it..sori again.. Doesn't mean it.. And no need to say sori to myself if u think I'm hurt coz we are playing in the same ground.. Its fair for me to get hurt either...
Tit for tat..
Sure there will be polar of the magnet which will be attracted to each other.. Without any outer force.. So just wait till the right polar meets..