hidup semua

Tak semua benda yg kita nak dalam hidup kita dapat..
Tak semua benda hidup nie ikut lumrah alam..
tak semua hati itu suci...
Tak semua org pakai akal yang logik...
Tak semua org baik budi..
Tak semua org berniat baik...
Tak semua berbaik sangka...
Tak semua org berfikiran positive...

Yang penting hati yang ikhlas...
Yang penting sentiasa ingatkanNya..
Yang penting kita berfikiran positive..
Yang penting kita berbaik sangka...
Yang penting kita berniat baik...

Mungkin kita akan ditindas kalau sentiasa baik dan ikut peraturan.. Yang penting hidup dirahmati.....

feel small

When u stand alone the middle of mosque... Right below its dom
When u stand alone in the middle of the field of empty old trafford
When u look at the sky full of stars while u r alone at the beach
When u look down from the top of klcc
When u read about great warrior and king stories
when u know u just one of HIS slave

ingatan diri sendiri

Memandu.. Kadang-kadang kita terlalu laju.... Terlalu fokus ke depan... Dunia sekadar apa yg dekat depan windscreen... Kiri kanan sekadar yg dijeling.. Sekadar yg sempat... Yg belakang kiranya kalau di hon or di high beam... Kadang benda yg didepan pun terlalu kecil sampai habis dilanggar dilenyek... Terlalu fokus ke arah yg dituju.... Mcm hidup juga...........

Memandu. Santai.. Kiri kanan pandang.. Sampai sempat usya awek kiri kanan... Keindahan ciptaan tuhan.. Sempat usya keta-keta lain dijalanan... Lambat sket sampai... Luas pemandangan... Mcm hidup juga....

Santai atau fokus... Itu pilihan masing-masing... Soalan. Apa kehendak diri sendiri.. Apa yg kita nak dalam hidup.. Apa yg kita kejar dalam hidup... Kejar benda yg dicita atau menikmati apa yg mendatang disepanjang perjalanan.. Beza. Cepat dan berjaya.. Lambat tapi menikmati.. Sekali lagi.. Apa yg kita nak dalam hidup....masalah.. Sering terlupa apa yg diri sendiri mahu.. Dan hanyut dalam arus kehendak dan rentak org lain

Its amazing when someone can make u smile when she smile.. Membuatkan anda mahu humming kau buat aku tersenyum by sheila on7...
This is the 100 entry in this blog.. Part of the entry was made when I was single.. When I was with someone.. When I am back to be single and young and dangerous..but I guess I had found somebody special.. But yeah.. Its too early :) When I set up this blog, I was a medical school.. Budak mentah, hardly contributing to this world.. Just a burden to the govt and country.. And this 100 posting was made while I'm now a house officer at a govt hosp..
This blog was made as my personal channel to air my dissatisfaction, grumble.. My feeling.. My up and down and when I get angry... Hehe..I dun even care if anyone ever read it.. I just hope that one day when I was old and forget about simple2 thing about me in the past.. I could simply look back and see how shallow my mind at that specific moment and time.. And perhaps it could remind me back some sweet memories :)

advanture in life

How would u define adventure in life?
1.U saw a random girl.. Then u go all out to get her.. U dun even know her.. U never speak to her.. U just decide u want to go after her... Hehe...
2.U have a good and secure job but 1 day u decide that all and I want to try something new.. So u resign and start looking for a new job or start a business.. A burger stall perhaps?
3.U pack ur bag, buy a flight ticket to sumwhere random and start a life there.. Totally a new life...

I hav been told once by my teacher... When we r in a comfort zone, we always try to stay within the comfort zone but we dunno the world outside our comfort zone and what its offer.. Unless we try and step out of our comfort zone.. In my life I did it once and for me its the turning point of my life so far.. But I just think that I'm in the new comfort zone which I should abandon it and start being adventurous.. Now I'm too comfort being a single guy... At least feel "comfortable" with my job.. And comfortable with the place i stay...should I start to hunt a random girl? Lookinh a new job? Or migrate somewhere? Or the best is do all.. Get a girl, quit my job and fly? Hehe.. Sound interesting...

OCD

Dkt posting nie rasa mcm byk deal dgn org yg byk kerenah or probably boleh didiagnose as OCD... Or maybe aku ke yg cincai? And or probably mmg org2 yg trait2 tertentu je boleh keja dkt situ? Or mungkin they r train to be like that? Yang aku pelik.. Org yang dr pubalan used to call "side show" pun bukan main berlagak lagi... Padahal bukan tau menda pun... Nama pun side show...
Punya la pelik org2 nie.. Sampai menda yang aku buang dalam tong sampah pun diaorg check... Benda yg aku clerk pun diaorg nak double check.. Kalah consultant aku kot.. Adoi la... Pelik...
Tapi kena lalui semua ini untuk menjadi doctor yg overall good in all aspect.. InsyaAllah..

6 tahun sekolah rendah... 5 tahun sekolah menengah.. Setahun dkt matrik.. 5 tahun dkt uni amik medic... Xde la plak cikgu or lecturer aku mengelabah... Or mengajar aku dgn cara kasar and buli aku... Semua pro je.. Even cikgu or lecturer yg bukan fav aku.. Aku hormat je diaorg.. Even sometimes yes aku mmg critical... Tapi hari nie aku rasa jumpa sorang yg mengelabah giler... Yg konon2 nak mengajar... Dgn cara yg kurang ajar... Aku tau aku baru.. Knowledge pun xseberapa.. Practical pun lemah... Maklum la.. HO... Banyak benda kena belaja.. Bukannya lahir2 jadi specialist.. Ajar la dgn cara profesional... And kau pun.. Bukan la superior aku... And aku pun bukan under kau... Atau maybe superior aku suh kau supervisor aku.. Ok fine... Maybe sebab expnce kau..
Xpe.. Aku terima.. Cuma aku expect kau ajar dgn cara yg lebih profesional.. Even kau bukan ditrain as profesional... :p

Hurm... U will be u in next 10 years pun... Paling kuat tukar baju je... Bising2 la banyak mana pun... In next 10 years pun aku tetap aku.. Tetap usung stet aku sana sini.. Tetap tulis plan atas paper/comp... Cuma aku rasa dalam medical punya field nie.. Kau kena respect sape2 pun even tukang sapu hosp..

Xpela.. Nak bising pun xguna.. Skrg aku ho cabuk je pun..

Baru balik tgk bola dkt stadium pahang... Enjoy jugak... Walaupun mungkin suasana tak semeriah old traford, stamford bridge atau anfield... Game tak serancak man utd vs chelsea.. Tapi at least nie satu2nya cara menyokong bola sepak tempatan... Dkt oversee.. Even 3rd division diaorg pun stadium penuh...
Cuma mcm biasa la.. Banyak suara2 sumbang mencarut sana sini... Harap muka hensem.. Janggut sejemput.. Kalau pakai serban sure nampak mcm ustaz.. Tapi mulut mcm longkang.. Mencarut tak henti2... Kesian budak2 kecik dkt situ.. Entah la.. Tak semua org fikir pasal org lain...

Balik dr kampung tadi.. Naik bas.. Lama xnaik bas.. Beza naik bas dgn drive sendiri.. Dapat tgk kiri kanan pemandangan dgn lebih kusyuk... Alam ciptaan Allah.. Boleh berfikir lebih sket... Berkhayal pun yea... Tgk gelagat penumpang lain.. Xlupa jugak driver bas yg aku rasa agak kurang sopan.. Kan bagus kalau boleh cakap dgn lebih sopan.. Nak tegur.. Tapi rasanya org mcm tue xleh ditegur... Biarkan la...

Esok hari baru.. Dunia baru.. Cabaran baru...

happy birthday to me

Yesterday was my 25th brithday.. As I always say.. Its just another day in my life.. just like today.. I just get another day older than me yesterday.. The only different is.. I just another year older than what I was at the same date last year... Anyway.. Yesterday was marking 25 years of age that Allah borrow to me.. The chance given to me to breath and kicking around in this world.. At the age of 25.. I with alhamdulillah could say that most of my childhood dream had come to a reality... 20 years ago.. I only dream to become a doctor and now I'm a doctor :p but as we grow older.. We have another dream.. Another aim and direction in life and of coz.. I will not simply share it right here.. But its just a nature of human to have their own dream.. May my next dream come true :) amin...

reading

2344CA25 I recently finding myself read more than what I tought I would... I start to ignore fb and more interested in book then the junk in the internet... Of coz most of it is a medical book beside recently added to my collection.. A Doctor in the House by our ex prime minister.... But I should sleep now :)